That's selfish right? Well I do know nothing

I ofthen thinking "thanks god, this problem came when I'm going to leave this house"
That's selfish right?
Maybe I'm just fine with all of this. I'm gonna go to someplace that no one know about who I am, so no one will ask that stupid question about "what happened to bla bla bla..". And if someone really ask it, I think it will be easy to cover it up. No one will know that I'm lying, or no one will care.

And I think its good for my old woman. I know she's hurt by ending up like this, but it will be more painfull for her if they keep going on that..
Yeah, its okay after all..

But will that be the same with those two little jerk. Do they know what they're facing about?
When will they stop asking about our condition?
When will they understad?

Then, how are their feeling when the thruth come?
Will they sad?
Will they mad?
Will they hate...
Or will they become like 'that person'.
I hope no..

What will they do when someone ask?
Will they answered it clearly?
Will they kick everyone who asking?
Will they put a smile on their face and said "hi-mi-tsu"
Or will they act like nothing happened? Nothing to worried about..

Saa~ I do know nothing.

I'm just hoping that when the truth come they have been grow up, they already understand and know what is right and what is wrong.
We can't keep hiding it right?

and I hope someday we will be strong enough, strong enough to protect our self and something that realy precious to us.